2,459,808,394 Seconds

Last night a close friendship of mine came to a very official end.  It was a strange feeling.  I came home, and found myself feeling pretty low.  As much as I didn't want to, tears fell down my face.  I let myself feel hurt, and lied in my bed, feeling quite hollow.  I could feel myself slipping, sinking down to somewhere I knew I didn't want to go.  And somewhere I wasn't sure I'd find my way out of.

But then a surprising combination of Angels and Airwaves and a quote I hung on my wall made me realize that moping around, feeling awful about what happened wasn't worth it.  The quote says, "The average person gets 2,459,808,394 seconds.  Use them well."  I stared at it for a minute as it sunk in.  Then I realized, "I'm wasting my seconds."

What happened, and how it happened was hard.  But that doesn't change the fact that I have a ton of truly wonderful people in my life.  People that understand me.  People that love me. People that want to, and do, treat me so much better than that.  So instead of crying for the loss of one, I'm choosing to appreciate the ones that remain.  And always will.